I freely admit it. I haven't written anything since um...the January before last. I guess I am not a great blogger. I will probably never win an award for it, I will probably never be asked to test things, or blog about them by a company. To be honest, I'm not really even sure why I am blogging tonight, I just felt compelled. Not much has happened this year in the way of big, huge things. I left a job. That was big for me because financially it was better for me and had benefits. I went back to my part time childcare job which caused me to lose 10 hours of work a week, take a decrease in pay and lose my benefits. But I could breathe again. In January or February this year I did my first paid photo session. It led to a bunch more. I photographed a wedding. I started teaching winterguard. A lot of little things happened. Things I am proud of. My daughters being good people, doing well in school because they work hard. Spending time with my husband. All those little things that add up to a good life. Lots of bigger, scarier types of things have happened in the world, in our country, that can if I focus on them make me nervous, less secure. So I choose for my own well being to take care of me, my family, my community by helping to shape little ones in to good people so they won't be part of those big scary things.
I am ready to take big, new steps though. I don't know what they are going to be. But I can feel myself shifting and getting ready and that's always really exciting. I know some really big dreams I have that will take some work now. I need to start that big work. I don't know how to get where I want to go, but I know where I am heading and that is a big part of it. Anyone else have big dreams? Anyone else feel themselves shifting and getting ready for some new steps?