A day to myself

I am a mom. Of 2 gorgeous fun little girls. And wife to a husband, that's a stay at home once he gets home from work kind of guy. So there is almost never a time when I am in my house by myself. I think it has happened maybe 3 times since my 4 year old was born. Today is one of those rare days. I love my family. DEEPLY. But I can't remember how to be by myself. I have the day off of work today because my coworker needs days off at the end of the week so I am covering her and my time those days, leaving me today off and going in late tomorrow. One daughter is at school, the other at the daycare where I happen to work. She is there until 4. My husband is obviously at work. I thought, since I could, I would document my day from the time I dropped the youngest off until the time I pick her up to see how I would spend an entire day alone. This is how it went:

9:03 AM-Dropped E off at daycare and instead of leaving right away chatted with my coworkers until 9:15AM about what I would day alone.

9:17AM-Go through the drive thru at Dunkin Donuts and watch a girl smoke on her break while waiting in line to order. Get to window and almost receive the wrong drink.....again, but luckily I called it to the woman's attention and major life crisis averted. No worries.

9:19AM-Ponder while sipping my latte what exactly I should do with my time off. I decide to head to the local Salvation Army. Pull in parking lot. Realize I have to pee desperately and pull back out and head to the gas station.

9:24-Run in to Fastrac to pee, and decide to get gas. I was almost on E and gas at the Fastrac was still the low low price of $3.95. Knowing tomorrow when I take the girls to dance it will definitely be over $4 I get 3/4's of a tank. Now, I hit the $40.05 mark and quit. I couldn't bring myself to go all the way for fear I would break down and cry at the gas pump. I'm sure lately that has happened to others.

9:27-Hop back in my car and head back to the Salvation Army where I proceed to spend approximately an hour and half looking and relooking at the shelves and racks. I first head to housewares because that stuff gets snapped up fast. I found a bunch of fun stuff. Then I spent a large chunk of my time there looking at the books which was nice because I found 3 I needed to have. Tried some clothes and listen to the pregnant chick get discouraged because she could find nothing to fit her and as her mom pointed out, her ass was never gonna again look the way it did, because if she hadn't noticed.....thinks were shifting back there that shouldn't be:)

11AM-Walk out of store with ridiculous grin on my face because something I bought is so silly. I sit in my car and ponder if I should head somewhere else or head home. I head home. If I don't try out staying at home alone, how will I get better at it and learn to relax?

11:04AM-Come inside and dump my stuff on living room floor. notice that across the street neighbor is placing trees in a line to I can only assume give him and his family some privacy from the guy that has a Confederate Flag hanging on his house.

11:05AM-Sit down at desktop computer and check mail and of course facebook. Take a moment to brag that I am home alone and then sigh.

11:25AM-Ask Neptune(my rat terrier) if he wants to take a nap and watch him run for the stairs. We go up and I set the alarm for 12:30PM so as not to sleep my day away. Lay in bed thinking of all the things I could be doing because I'm home alone. Get so confused about what I want to do when I wake up, that I can't sleep.

12:03PM-Climb out of bed. Come downstairs and check facebook again. Make myself a Spinach, Chicken Artichoke lean Pocket(not bad) and then decide to take a picture of all the stuff I got.

12:27PM-Post on my sisters wall that I am going to do that then walk in my dining room and realize first I have to clean off my table.

12:28PM-Realize in order to do that I need music. So I go and get my laptop and turn on music. Proceed to clean off table.

12:42PM-Realize a song is making my depressed and that I should change it.

12:45PM-Eat 2 cherry tomatoes while gazing out the window. Wonder if it will ever stop raining. Decide I like the rain. Because once it stops raining in 10 days, the lawn is going to need to be mowed.

12:48PM-realize if it doesn't stop raining I can't get my garden figured out.

12:53PM-Decide it would be fun to write a blog documenting my wicked exciting day. So instead of taking pictures of the stuff I bought and have cleaned off the table for, I sit down to blog about it instead:)

1:10PM-Save my blog so I can add on as the day progresses and realize now I have to figure out what to do next...about those pictures!

1:14PM-Go to look for my camera bag and think it's in my car. So I go out there. It's cold and raining. Bag isn't in the car because it's laying in the living room on the floor next to the table.

1:15PM-Begin photographing my models:)

1:32P-Finish photographing and uploading the pictures. The short white glass is a Napco piece. The amethyst looking bottle is what I am going to put dish soap in so I can get rid of the plastic bottle. The doll...well the doll is my favorite. Sorry but it is. So awesome. 2 of the 3 books I bought I have been wanting to read. The crates...I think I am going to paint them and put them on the wall for shelves. The other stuff I don't know about yet, but they spoke to me. 

1:35PM-While getting ready to put the tablecloth on the dining room table, I read the following article about procrastination-oooh the irony-

http://christinekane.com/9-simple-solutions-for-procrastinators/

Ok so I am a procrastinator. For the sake of not ruining and wasting the rest of my glorious day, I am going to do something.

1:52PM-decide to just go ahead and paint one of those crates now. I grab a blue I've had a while and paint the outside of the thing. In a few minutes-who knows if I will wait for the paint to dry all the way:)-before i slap this crackle making stuff on it. I decide that the thing was $1.99 so if I screw it up who cares and I can paint over paint. AND furthermore, if I wait till  I know just what I want...I won't ever do it.

1:55PM-go to rinse paintbrush and realize I can't because the sink is full of dishes. Commence loading dishwasher.

2:06PM-Finish loading dishwasher and rinse paintbrush off.

2:08PM-Rinse new amethyst bottle and load it with purple Oil of Olay and Dawn Dish Soap

2:11PM-realize how goofy it was for me to wash out the bottle that I was going to put soap in. 

2:11part 2-Hey it stopped raining. 

2:17PM-apply next part of my project. Didn't wait for paint to dry. smeared it some. DON'T CARE. Next coat smells AWFUL. Finish painting coat on and look out window. Yepp. Raining again. 

2:19PM-Must be time for coffee again right?

2:20PM-Invaded a birds privacy by watching it take a bath in the neighbors pool cover. It seems to me it could have just stood still and gotten a shower. What do I know. I guess it needed to get into those little crevices:)

2:43PM-Got distracted reading Something Blue by Emily Giffin. The writing is so similar to the women who wrote Bitter is the New Black it's almost sad. But entertaining anyway. Time for some coffee.

2:52PM-Pondering. I've been on this kick reading absolutely shallow books. It's helping me to get out of my head and lighten up. 

2:57PM-snack time. And the coffee is ready. Actually I'm thinking sandwich. Yes I know it's 3pm or almost. But see I'm hungry now. 

3:18PM-played Lord of the Rings online for about 20 minutes. My oldest daughter just walked in the house wet from the rain. Oops. I should have gone to pick her up. Now I am signing off to see about some ice cream. Then it's off to pick E up from daycare. It has been a good day. I've enjoyed it immensely.