losing it

Weight that is. Though some of my coworkers may think they have witnessed me finally cracking and going insane. I can't blame them really. But anyway, I am part of a website called Sparkpeople. It's a free diet and weightloss website that is really amazing. I joined a team called DONE being the Fat Girl. Though my dr. begs to differ and apparently having 35 pounds to lose means I am obese,  It's a lie.  I'm not really fat, but the team is fun and funny and that's what I need. So I joined it and they are starting a challenge on Sunday that should be a lot of fun and make me get to it! I read a book that resonated with me, called Women Food and God, and what the book said made sense. But....I really like concentrating on what I am eating and exercising because it gives me a sense of purpose. Even though, the book says that is just a way to cover up the real things I should be thinking about:)

Anyway. You know that feeling you get when you know it's time to move on from something? What if you know it's time to move on but you don't know where to go? I don't want a band aid fix, I want a job I love. That makes me want to get up in the morning and sigh with content when I go to bed at night. Sometimes, in order to make big changes you gotta start small. So i got my hair cut. I know, not really job related per say, but well, it's enough to make my head not hurt anymore!!

Mind you, my hair used to be about to my bellybutton(if my bellybutton was on the back I mean:) So it was a big cut. So anyway, maybe today will be the day I hear of the perfect solution to my conundrum. When and how to move on.